So I skipped a few posts. I fell behind a bit, in more ways than one. This summer I set out to grow as an actress and as an adult, choosing to live alone in the city. Scroll through the archive of this blog and you’ll find a picture of my thigh and my palms covered in very severe road rash. On the third day after I moved back to the city I crashed on my rollerblades while heading to the grocery store. It may sound like a few light scratches, but it was two weeks of constant pain that I learned to live and sleep with. I couldn’t job hunt in the city let alone work, so I went back home. And a month later I was fine, but still had no job and a lot of rent money to pay, so I went back to my old job here in my small town.
And between you and I I feel like a huge failure. No one else even sees it that way, but I’ve got big plans for my life. I can’t get stuck here in this small town. I need to be in the city where I actually have opportunities to fulfill my dreams.
But I’m trying to learn how to make the best of all this. I know I will eventually have my chance for greatness. I’m still heading into school this September for my second year in the acting and voice program at seneca, and I’m stoked. I was just hoping to do so much more with my summer. Get some acting jobs on my resume, because I’m not allowed to do work outside school from September to April.
But I just need to slow down. Work with what I’ve got where I am, and keep dreaming.